[Everything has been complicated for some time now. Ever since Zero came back to this place while existing in her future. The things he's told her have turned her world upside down. There's been a lot of pain and denial and the inability to accept everything for the fear of tearing her heart apart.
To be honest she doesn't know what she's doing. It would take someone to be completely blind and naive not to realize that people are hiding things from her. She knows they are as clear as day but at the same time, she's equally afraid to ask. And so she's been in a stalemate. It's moments like this where she realizes the extent to which things have changed.
Once upon a time, Aidou would never have suggested she do something contrary to Kaname's wishes. This really is a first. Her surprise fades before a touch of appreciation replaces it.]
. . . Are you worried about me? [Quiet and warm. She asks even as she moves forward and gently locks an arm with his. Aidou- for however brash and difficult he may be from time to time really is a dear friend, isn't he? It relaxes her. Quiet and content her eyes close and she hums gently.] I'm so very grateful to you, Senpai. Thank you. [Truly. Knowing that somehow, amid all the upset and worry she has him by her side allows her to remain calm.]
I promise that if there is something I disagree with, then I'll do as I please, regardless of what oniisama says.
[The very real problem with their relationship is that she loves him so much it hurts. And she trusts him so little that she doesn't believe a word he says. It's a contradiction in their relationship that makes it seem an impossibility. She's just so frightened to let go.]
I love that person. [A quiet admission, one that doesn't even have to be said. She knows that Aidou is aware of it.] For some reason, sometimes my head gets so clouded with my feelings for him, that I can't think straight. It's as though he takes over my thoughts. [Obsession, love... she doesn't know what it is or why. Only that his presence can take over her mind like a spell.]
But I'm upset too. If I disagree with something, then I wont let it pass without comment. And I'll be careful to tend to myself as well.
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To be honest she doesn't know what she's doing. It would take someone to be completely blind and naive not to realize that people are hiding things from her. She knows they are as clear as day but at the same time, she's equally afraid to ask. And so she's been in a stalemate. It's moments like this where she realizes the extent to which things have changed.
Once upon a time, Aidou would never have suggested she do something contrary to Kaname's wishes. This really is a first. Her surprise fades before a touch of appreciation replaces it.]
. . . Are you worried about me? [Quiet and warm. She asks even as she moves forward and gently locks an arm with his. Aidou- for however brash and difficult he may be from time to time really is a dear friend, isn't he? It relaxes her. Quiet and content her eyes close and she hums gently.] I'm so very grateful to you, Senpai. Thank you. [Truly. Knowing that somehow, amid all the upset and worry she has him by her side allows her to remain calm.]
I promise that if there is something I disagree with, then I'll do as I please, regardless of what oniisama says.
[The very real problem with their relationship is that she loves him so much it hurts. And she trusts him so little that she doesn't believe a word he says. It's a contradiction in their relationship that makes it seem an impossibility. She's just so frightened to let go.]
I love that person. [A quiet admission, one that doesn't even have to be said. She knows that Aidou is aware of it.] For some reason, sometimes my head gets so clouded with my feelings for him, that I can't think straight. It's as though he takes over my thoughts. [Obsession, love... she doesn't know what it is or why. Only that his presence can take over her mind like a spell.]
But I'm upset too. If I disagree with something, then I wont let it pass without comment. And I'll be careful to tend to myself as well.