... You think this is about whether or not I think you deserve it? I thought I explained before - I barely gave that a chance before. I didn't, err, get used to you before.
[ He'd never even gotten comfortable saying 'Riku' aloud before these last few days. He puts his hand over his chest. ]
Call it selfish if you want, but this is about me. I'd been afraid of things changing. I could barely cope with being alive again after our fight. I didn't want to even think about what my life could be like if I couldn't be... Riku.
[ Again, the name is like a ton of bricks on his lips, but he keeps pushing forward. ]
I had maybe, what, a couple of hours of memories unique to me last you saw me, right? Maybe a day tops? The only way I could become someone else was to make new memories beyond those. I had to try new things - things I thought I'd be terrible at based on everything I thought I knew about myself, based on having no skills besides fighting. It's obvious that had to involve new people too, or did you think it was Sora who taught me how to cook and bake?
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[ He'd never even gotten comfortable saying 'Riku' aloud before these last few days. He puts his hand over his chest. ]
Call it selfish if you want, but this is about me. I'd been afraid of things changing. I could barely cope with being alive again after our fight. I didn't want to even think about what my life could be like if I couldn't be... Riku.
[ Again, the name is like a ton of bricks on his lips, but he keeps pushing forward. ]
I had maybe, what, a couple of hours of memories unique to me last you saw me, right? Maybe a day tops? The only way I could become someone else was to make new memories beyond those. I had to try new things - things I thought I'd be terrible at based on everything I thought I knew about myself, based on having no skills besides fighting. It's obvious that had to involve new people too, or did you think it was Sora who taught me how to cook and bake?